My friend. I want to tell you that the light inside you is stronger than the darkness that surrounds you. That if your every request would result in your happiness I would surely give them to you. If giving you your desires instantly would be lasting and beneficial you would have them all. But we both know that learning and changing takes time, and the journey is as important as the destination.
I want you to know that I see your daily struggle to follow me and the guilt that cripples you when you fail, I know that you are often your harshest and most unforgiving critic. I need to tell you to stop assuming how I will feel about your so called failings and instead just come and spend time with me. On occasion you will need telling straight but my anger is slow and top trumped by my grace.
I want to answer all your questions but if you are honest most of them are smokescreens so you don’t have to answer my questions. What do you think will happen? Do you really think I will leave you? Give up on you? Walk out on you? Punish you? My friend would I have gone to the cross if I didn’t believe I could save you, and in saving you bring you into life as it was created, by me coincidentally, to be? To understand grace you first have to need it. You need it so come and learn from it, because when everyone, including you has given up on you I am still standing, with that gift of grace waiting for you.