You are rubbish. Honestly you are a total idiot. No one else would waste so much as effectively as you do. No one else would use their time for such idiotic escapades. Who else do you know that abuses grace so profoundly as you? To be honest mate why don’t you just jack it all in? You lack discipline and you are probably never going to have enough to be good enough! Yes there’s always grace, but don’t you think you have pushed it a bit too far? How many times can someone (specifically YOU) be forgiven? Does God really forgive everything?! You are taking the mick. And you know it. Why don’t you go out and spoil yourself – there’s a whole world out there to make you feel better – go for it kid. After all if you are going to ruin everything you touch you may as well have fun doing it.
This is why satan is called the accuser.
Revelation 12:10-11 (NIV) ‘Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say: “Now have come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Christ. For the accuser of our brothers, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down. They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.”‘
It’s not as bad as you make it out to be you know. I’ve seen much worse and will do again. The great thing about you is you try. You hardly ever need me to give you those gentle pushes. You claim you don’t understand grace but your life, your determination, your resilience – that tells a different story. Everyone has bad days, that’s one of the reasons I was sent – to remind you of the good when all you can see is the bad. Do you realise what a privileged position you hold? At your best you reflect God’s light into the darkness at worst you are an example of grace being worked out. God really does forgive everything and as long as you always cling to that truth you will prevail. And the times when you find it too hard? Those times I am here, and I always have the last word.
This is why the Holy Spirit is called the comforter.
John 14:15-18 (AMP) ‘If you [really] love Me, you will keep (obey) My commands. And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, and Standby), that He may remain with you forever – The Spirit of Truth, Whom the world cannot receive (welcome, take to its heart), because it does not see Him or know and recognise Him. But you know and recognise Him, for He lives with you [constantly] and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, desolate, bereaved, forlorn, helpless]; I will come [back] to you.’